Trust

I remember that when I was a little girl and felt helpless in my mother’s arms, I hoped… no, I was certain that when I grew up, I would know all the answers to life and its challenges. Then I turned 18, and I was still as lost; then I turned 22—just as clueless.

Life comes to us with a lot of questions which we try so desperately to answer, an issue that becomes even more daunting when you are a young adult and have to make fundamental decisions: what to do after high school, what to major in, what career path to choose, what friends to have, what to make of love, how to balance work and school, what priorities to set, what skills to build, and what kind of person to become. I struggled greatly with making these decisions until one day, overwhelmed by the chaos in my head, the pain in my chest and the tears on my cheeks, I understood that I, in fact, do have the answer to everything and that answer is God.

Becoming an adult is a process of chiseling and fine tuning who you are. It is a time full of ambitions and passions, but most importantly it should be the time to learn how to trust God and draw near to your faith because that is the foundation of everything that truly matters in life. When I deal with fear, loneliness, pain, or sadness, I imagine being in God’s embrace for He is my Father, and He will always know how to comfort me better than anyone else in this world.

A chapter from the Bible that stays with me is Romans 8 because it strengthened me to surrender everything to God and trust Him. Verses 38–39 say, “For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” I always come back to feeling that God knows what is best for me because of His abundant love for me.

Since I live in a world that clouds my mind with wrong priorities, I try to remind myself that Christ is the base for everything, He knows what we need; and while we have Him in our heart, all our pains and hardships are taken care of. When troubled with unanswered questions and decisions, I go back on my knees and pray for guidance and clarification. I go back to the words of our saints and holy fathers, I go to church, and I let God soothe my heart and show me what really matters the way He knows best.